"Transformation isn’t easy. It isn’t pretty. Ever watch a bird hatch? It’s fucking exhausting. You don’t ascend from that lowest place of your life in a tidy straight line, moving a few inches upward every day. No, it’s a messy and jerky and unpredictable trajectory. But it is a trajectory. And the general direction - from the moment of your decision forward - is always going to be UP. Up and out. You will shed whatever and whomever you need to shed. You will find whatever and whomever you need to find. You will crawl and bawl. Until eventually you are standing, finally, on your own two feet in your own shower of light. Until you are the person you never would have been, had you never met your own worst darkness face-to-face. And that is the gift that ruin offers us."
"My father used to say, “Don’t raise your voice. Improve your argument."
"There’s a brief moment when you first wake up where you have no memories, a blissful blank slate, a happy emptiness, but it doesn’t last long and you remember exactly where you are and what you are trying to forget."
Nothing will ever top this version of the song.
You look healthy.
And by that I don’t mean you look fat.
I mean your face isn’t grey any more, the circles under your eyes aren’t so dark. Your lips aren’t cracked and dry and your hair isn’t thinning and brittle. I mean you seem more focused when I talk to you, You actually look at me and listen rather than being so unable to stay still or think about anything other than your illness that your eyes dart around the room and you nod manically the whole time I’m speaking. You seem calmer, stiller, quieter. You’re easier to have a joke with and you take things on board much more than you used to.
I mean you laugh now, you’re less serious. There’s life about you, it’s in your eyes and your smile, it’s in the way you speak and even in the way you go about your daily tasks.
You look healthy. You look happy. It really, really suits you.
Really needed to post this right now. This is the only thing that ever helps me get even a little bit into wise mind about how I look. (via foreveralotus)
I love this so much! This is my absolute favorite post ever!
this make me cry, every time.
Reblogging this again bc it really gets me.
"I want to be
I want you
to think about kissing
as much as I
"There was actually nothing beautiful or poetic about it. You shattered my fucking heart."